Sometimes I wonder if I really understood what I was asking for when I prayed for God to help me fulfill certain dreams. Did my asking automatically sign me up for the turmoil that often takes place when trying to fulfill a dream? How could I have not known that I would be plunged into an abyss of dark days? That some nights I would go to bed in tears and wake up with a puffy and swollen face and have to make like nothing was wrong. Why didn’t I have the foresight to know that my vision would not only be misunderstood but also seen as arrogant or conceited? How could a commitment to a better future for myself and the people that I love, be confused with willful neglect? Better yet, why would God give me the capacity to dream big, see the signs all around me and cause me to think of myself as worthy of living those dreams, only to bring me to my knees? Why?
Nobody tells you that when you are pursuing your dreams that you will experience more fear and adversity than you could possibly imagine. What they don’t tell you, is that the moment you say yes to yourself and a better life, you also attract every stumbling block and distraction there is to knock you off your feet. Search anywhere on the internet and you’ll find an endless supply of inspirational memes, videos, threads, tweets and hashtags to convince you to say yes, but not enough exposure to the reality that your yes is signed in blood and will be paid with sweat and tears. The price for your dreams is hefty, but the return on your investment is matchless!
The emotional, mental, physical and social suffering that comes along with trying to change the trajectory of your life is like trying to force the polar ends of powerful magnets to touch. I imagine that the force it takes for the planets to align or the moon to block out the sun is likened to the effort one commits to when trying to bring their dreams to fruition. Why must our masterwork be austere? Why is it that when we say yes to our dreams and cross that proverbial threshold that it also invites suffering?
“But he that knew not, and did commit things worthy of stripes, shall be beaten with few stripes. For unto whomsoever much is given, of him shall be much required: and to whom men have committed much, of him they will ask the more.”-Luke 12:48
All of life and everything therein is a transaction. You must be willing to sacrifice and endure the suffering that comes along with living your best life. The focus and intention that you invest in the pursuit of your dreams may cost you people who were near and dear to your heart, but you will gain folks whose life’s work is purposed just for you. Your dreams may require you to scale down how you live for months at a time, but you will gain the skills and experience to steward a lifestyle that will blow your mind! You may feel like you are alone and wandering in the dark, but this is when you can receive clarity the most. You were born with gifts and talents that can provide you a life that you truly love, that’s a given, however, you will be required to endure all that comes with it. That which has been vested in you from birth is only made perfect through toil. Remember if it is already in you, then you also already have what it takes. Do the work and reap the benefits!